My Diabetes Result: PASS

What’s the first feeling that hits like a hammer when you realize you suddenly have to take 2-3 injections a day to beat diabetes? Shattered? Depressed? Negativity all around you, right? My reaction was no different. The feeling of the ground slowly slipping away under your feet. Not a very ideal situation to stay in for long.

Let me share with you my journey from fail to pass. It was not easy, but also not unattainable.

The Ever-entertaining Diagnosis Story:

Let me kick start this story with how I got here. It was 4 days to my engagement with my life partner and was my last working day in the office. The morning review meeting commenced with targets to accomplish, being in a recruitment firm numbers did matter. I moved out for a pee break as the AC chilled my body. While in the washroom, I suddenly felt something close to vertigo, unable to reach the door nob, in no time I was on the floor hitting the door. After few seconds I could hardly feel my limbs or hands. The next thing I wake up to was a shocker. People trying to push in some raw sugar and sugared cold drinks down my throat. Hello, I haven’t detected diabetes until then.
Then comes the doctor’s visit, where first I was recommended to eat well being too petit for a marriage. I was approximately 45kg at the age of 24 years. Not healthy at all, your right. Out of the blue, my general physician took my blood test on his clinic blood sugar machine. The machine result shocked the doctor. He asked me one question, Have you ever before checked your blood sugar? With a big question mark on my face, my parents said, yes maybe a year back in her company annual medicals. To which he replied, anything alarming there?. Mum said, not sure but she was pre-diabetic but she has been controlling her sweet consumption post those reports. My sugar sample at that time was immediately sent to a reputed diagnosis Centre. The report came in a couple of hours. It was smashing 600 blood sugar, yes this was random. I do blame all the raw sugar and cold drinks forced down my throat in the office while I was unconscious. Not their fault either, they dint know they were adding to the poison in me.

The Struggle Story:

After a visit with my dialectologist, I just realized my marriage saved me from getting hospitalized. Before I left his cabin he says, take less stress. OMG, that’s the last thing I can control especially when I am the bride-to-be. Trying my best, offloading my shoulders with some basic stress topics like clothes, shoes, makeup and hair – my sister took over. Trying to attend my wedding ceremonies in better sugars, even a 200 blood sugar seemed to make me feel dizzy as though I got a low sugar attack. Probably my body was not used to decent sugars for a long time.

The Turning Points:

Family played a vital role here. They stood by me and held my hand each time I wanted to give up. Like any other normal person, I too have my sweet craving which I had to curb down for my betterment. My family made me strong enough to see them indulge in sweets and not allow the water in my tummy to move at all. More than being overprotective and sympathizing with type 1 diabetics I have learned how being absolutely normal helped me.

How did I manage to PASS this critical test?

There are certain traits that I needed to become friends with to get through this critical test. Let me break it down for you: How did I PASS this?

P – Perseverance:
I believe in this one strong proverb, “It always seems impossible until it is done”. If the diabetics in the world would not have persuaded their aim to wake up with better sugar reading no one would be courageous to share their success stories online. There have been multiple success stories where people with diabetes have been all shattered and then soar as high as any normal person. If you’re dedicated to your doctor’s theories then no one can pull you away from gaining an ideal HBA1c.

As mentioned in my previous blog you need all your 4 wheels in the car to function so that you can drive the car. Similarly, for diabetics, the 4 wheels are Exercise, Diet, Medication and Mental peace. Optimize these 4 to get closure to your goal.

A – Acceptance:
Acceptance is the key to move on. Often acceptance is considered to be passive in nature. On the other hand, it acts as a positive trigger to grow and get better. It took me a little longer than a year to accept type 1 diabetes and insulin. I would try to take less insulin with changing situations around me and expect sugars to be the same. The day I realized with unstable situations surrounding me that I need few more shots of insulin, sugars behaved as expected. I accepted the fact that I need insulin to get better and look where I am now.

Invalidation of real feelings of fear, anxiety, and sadness can take a toll on mental health. Accepting emotions, on the other hand, has the opposite effect.

S – Sustain:
The most critical and difficult task in diabetes management is to maintain good results. With great sugar readings, you seldom turn powerful and ignorant to few sugar highs. You definitely deserve a treat for your hard work and dedication but that’s for a day or two. Sustaining a great schedule consisting of exercise, controlled food intact, appropriate medication as prescribed by your dialectologist and controlling emotions is the key.

I would like to throw light on this one statement by Winston Churchill, “Success is not final, failure is not fatal: It is the courage to continue that counts.”

S – Satisfaction:
Finally, here comes the result you have been waiting to read. From a 12.5 HbA1c at the end of 2017 to a 7.1 HbA1c at the beginning of 2021 is the ultimate satisfying emotion I would like to express through this blog. Yes, 3 years of dedication and discipline got me here.

More than anything else I am satisfied I did my best, have you done your best yet? If not, get up and enable yourself to feel this blissful emotion of self-satisfaction.

Spreading Toxic Positivity,
It’s always too soon to quit!
– Kainaz Wadia.